Sunday, August 09, 2015

I Think I Sense A Hater... dun dun dun

Before you read, you have to know that this is going to be an emotional post that will make some of you, who don't like these kinds of things, feel uneasy. 

I avoided writing this post for a long time because it's quite personal. By no means is this a rant towards the people that have raised and taught me to be appreciative of what I have because, the fact of the matter is, I am. I am so grateful that I wake up in my bed and can take out my computer and start a post that I know will be seen by other bloggers and friends. I also have a shelf of books that I haven't even started to read from and it's more than I could ask for. 

But some people just don't understand...

The same thing goes for non-booklovers. You could be shopping at Barnes & Noble with a cart of 20 books and the person next to you could be eyeing you with a dirty look on their face trying to wonder why you need all those books. I hate it when people that don't understand my love/our love for books, and who aren't apart of the book loving community, think that they have the right to judge and scowl or even point out that you shouldn't be hoarding books and/or buying so many when you already have a ton of books you haven't read yet. You think we can help this unbearable need for books (more like the need to read)? This is something that comes naturally to any booklover/blogging/booktuber, you just have this craving, this urge to buy books! And that's because it's our passion; our love!

So they act like they know us...

A conversation between a booklover and a person who doesn't understand why the booklover likes books so much, aka the hater. 

Hater: Look, I understand that you love to read. I totally get you, but why do you have to buy a new book every week? 

Booklover: No you don't truly understand why I love to read because if you did, you wouldn't be questioning why I do the things I do. 

Hater: I just think it's absurd and a waste of money. And plus, you've got no room on your shelves for it. 

The pretend to be familiar with what situation we're in and they say the stupidest things ever while doing so. Sucks, doesn't it? To have that conversation with someone and go back and forth when the answer is so obvious to you but not to them? Books are like a token. To some people they are a measurement and testament to how much you've read. You can hold up a book from your shelf and think to yourself, hey I finished and read all 465 pages of this book

This just annoys me! How I have to deal with the people that I love doubting what I like to do and thinking I'm stupid enough to waste money on books. I promised myself I wouldn't cuss or say bad things about them but it's coming to a point where I just need to lay my hand down on the table and say STOP!  

My parents and friends haven't been the biggest supporters of my obsession over the course of how long I've been doing blogging and booktubing. I don't blame them since all of this was kind of surprising and abrupt. I am a shy person and it's weird to them to see me getting out there. I just feel like I'm questioned a lot about the real reason I do all this and when I tell them it's just my simple love for reading, they don't believe me. It's hard, you know. I know this life is a little expensive but passion doesn't come without consequence half the time, and I just thought I would be encouraged not brought down by the friends and family I love. I want to take this time to write a letter to everyone who is now doubting my current situation. 

Dear Haters, 

You don't know, so don't attempt to. If you don't want to support me, or at least have the decency to respect what I do and not make a joke out of it, then I shouldn't have to do the same to you. I've played along with what you've wanted for a long time now. I've tried everything to stop myself from not reading or not buying. Can't you just face the fact that it doesn't work and I can't do it? No you can't because you still think I'm crazy. Goodbye to you. 

And there it is. This is probably the most emotional piece I've written since I started blogging, but I had to do it and get it off my chest. Thanks if you guys actually read that. I love you for that reason that we're a family all on our own. Blogging fam forever!

What are your reactions? How do you feel after reading this?

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is a book-hoarding, binge-eating anime lover that loves to read and write on her free time. When she hasn't got her head stuck in an enthralling fantasy novel, she's outside collecting rocks or re-organizing her bookshelves for the 100th time. Alex also has nightmares of her TBR pile falling down and crushing her underneath.


  1. It's easy not to care when it's a stranger who is scoffing at your passion but when it's family/friends it's harder. But just keep telling them it makes you happy and surely they want to see you happy. And remind that you could be doing a lot worse with your money and time :)

    1. This helped a lot. I am definitely taking this advice as we speak <3

  2. I totally agree with you mine are the same no under standing at all. I have nothing in common with my family but they still try to male me feel guilty for loving books so much.
    When I buy 1 or 5 you get the comments like "there's she is again buying more books" or the usual"don't you think you have enough books" my reply is always "No".
    My dad has started letting his book passion come out a bit more my brother has a few Clarkson and hunting books.
    I like to think I had a influence on them to be more open about books and to share them.

    1. I want to thank you so much for sharing. It's not common for most people to have the courage to talk about their personal life that in depth and I commend you for that. Trust me, I know what you mean. But I just want you to know that you should never feel guilty and that is the main reason why I wrote this post. Hope everything turns out okay and if not, you can always talk to me or any of the book bloggers because we seem to be sane <3

  3. Your (our) passion/obsession/addiction keeps our brains active, continues the learning process (no matter what we read), and is much, much cheaper than ANY of those nasty addictions people tend to choose (tobacco, drugs, alcohol, etc.). Books piled sky-high is only a bit of clutter. You can continue to function in all aspects of your life with your books, meet people you'd never be able to meet otherwise as a direct result of your reading, and continuously improve your technological skills as a result of your blogging. I see nothing to criticize and a lot to praise. I will consider myself blessed if my child shows such a love for the written word. I'm proud of you. Keep up the absolutely beautiful work.

    1. Truer words have never been spoken. There is nothing to be ashamed of, and I think it just took me a long time to realize that. The conviction in your words is so enlightening and brings me a lot of hope. There are so many bright and encouraging people here on the blogosphere. You are one of them! Thank you so so much for your comment :D

  4. So I want to reply more in depth, but im on my phone at work. I want to say I understand this feeling though. I will comment more when work isn't bothering me :)


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